Ceci n'est pas un blog.

I am so tired of blogging. But I am more tired of the rest of my life now. And maybe that's why I do not post anymore. But on the other hand maybe that's why I should be posting and writing more and more.

But I don't. I'm tired, worn out. My hair is a mess. I don't remember when I washed it last time. I don't know if I have to shave (just checked: I have to), I don't wear make up anymore and have no time for changing my earrings or purse to match my shoes, (it's really hard finding anything that matches my everlasting crocs).

I crossed over to the other side of my life, the one in which I am not as important as baby. Baby reigns. Baby has her own bag that is 3 times mine and weighs a ton. Baby takes up all the space in the trunk of the car and baby is only a few months old. Baby needs a lot of time to get ready and so mommy ends up getting out of the house wearing anything, looking like anything. I mean, looking like nothing but someone's mom.

It's work it's hard work. I try and explain it to my husband. Why am I so tired, why, she's adorable, she smiles all the time (except when she's crying), she eats and play and sleeps (except when she has colic, she needs attention, she does not want to eat, she spits apple on my face, she vomits in my sleeves....).

Don't get me wrong. I love all that. Except when I am so tired and have still some bottles to wash, mini clothes to laundry... and when I am desperate for some time for myself. I love it. But I am tired.